Terrible Friend

Do you ever feel like you have been such a bad friend that you think your friends should just ditch you. I feel like that right now. I am a terrible friend. I don't keep in touch and when I say I'm going to do something, I don't do it. I really need to work on a lot of things about myself. To my friends who are still sticking with me, thank you. And please bare with me because I'm really going to try.

Heath Ledger: Dead

As some of you may not know, I have a heart for the Hollywood community. I am still in shock about hearing of Heath Ledger's death. It's just not usually the big actors that are found dead. Sure, it happens, but not very often. It's at times like these that I really want to do something to help. I've been praying for the family and friends, but for some reason, I wish I could do more. It's not very easy when God has put Hollywood and actors in general in your heart and you don't live anywhere near them. I just wish there was more that I could do. I know this may sound silly to some of you, but this is really where my heart is.

How I Feel Right Now

I feel like I am done ranting about things that have happened with finances lately. This thing was not our fault, so what control did we have over it? I havn't ranted on here about what happened and I'm not going to. There's no point anymore. I'm kind of over it. Money is really a stupid thing to get upset about. Not that we don't need it, but it's not what defines us. Why get angry over it? Why let it drive a wedge between another person and yourself? So, I'm over it. All we can do is be responsible with our money and we've been doing that.

Anyway, I've spent time with God two days in a row now! This is a big thing for me. This is something I've always had a hard time with. Granted I've woken up extremely early the past two days (5:30am yesturday and 6:30am today), but I don't even mind because I like the quiet early in the morning. I feel really connected with God when it's quiet. I just feel really blest so far this week. My in-laws came and took us out for dinner for my birthday. They gave me some really awesome presents, including Gilmore Girls Season 7. It was a really nice visit. Our friends at church that we met the first day just became pastor and found out that they are pregnant with twins. Work was fun yesturday. It's been good!